Cylons attack

Gee, 

for April Fools my apartment mates and I decided to prank the boys' apartment.  It was hilarious because we changed out FB names/pictures to sort of steal their identity.. until... well.. feelings got hurt.. and one thing led to another.. and now my name is stuck as Cylon Michelle... FOREVER. it is ridiculous.  The only way I can change it back is if I email FB with my license. Uh, sorry, I am not going to do tat. Identity theft is still high on my "things I fear" list. 

God is good! Mystique is done and it went well! haha and my parents are great and came to watch me with my new ate Rhoda.  

I feel kind of distant from God.  I think I need to actually call on Him and make more of an effort than wait until something bad happens.  

I'm actually pretty stressed because I have so much work to do, but I'm going to try to be calm.  Three people told me yesterday to be calm.  Maybe only two, but Tim Shin's frickin' voice is always in my head to tell me to CD.  haha

But I think God is teaching me the definition of peace in my life and how that looks like: In the midst of craziness and confusion, I tend to get worked up (more than usual) and have a cloud in front of me which makes it hard for me to see.  [[side note: I just looked up in the lib cafe and the lady who was mean has now lost weight and is now much nicer, PTL!!]] I think that's probably a Bible verse, let me find it for my own benefit:

1 Peter 4:7 The end of all things is at hand; therefore be self-controlled and sober-minded for the sake of your prayers. 

This is so true.  The end of ALL things IS at hand.  The world is going to end, it may not be in my generation, but we ARE in the End times.  So a caveat for living: this world will end. <3 So comforting. 

But let's be self-controlled. How often do we give in to sin? Often do we give in to seeking things that are not wholesome to God's testimony?  This Sunday Pastor Peter defined sin as "wanting something for ourselves instead of God's." But this sort of conflicts and coincides with what I learned the previous week: "What we want and who we are should reflect God"  So if we put these together we get: "We need to be God-centered and it will be more natural the more we act upon it."  

YAY! now about being Sober-minded. Being of sober-mind is like being peaceful and finding peace in God.  Since, I learned today, that I am an ESFJ.  I am an EXTREME feeler. that's what the "F" stands for.  I act more upon what I feel than what I think.  When it becomes overwhelming I start going crazy and become drunk-minded (the only opposite of sober I can think of haha) and I don't think/rationalize reasonably.  Therefore, in MY case, finding peace in God is asking God to help me become soberminded to I can pray.

Now what does prayer consist of? In prayer, the Holy Spirit needs to take over the flesh.  In the case of being too stressed/too sad/too happy/too crazy/too hyper, I'm allowing my flesh to take over.  And when the flesh takes over, bad things happen. 

Anyway, I have to go study

PS: Jay is an ISTJ. How exciting. I'm sometimes an ENFP, so I can SOMETIMES be the exact opposite! hahaha which is always fun <3  i love my boyfriend.

We got into a fight.. which I probably started and instigated, and with God's help, we figured it out.  Without God, I don't think Jay (nor I.. hehehe) would have been so patient. haha <3 Thank you Lord for Your patience. 

Popcorn thoughts

Galatians 5

One of my favorite chapters ever.  It not only tells you what to do, but it tells you what NOT to do.  Praise God.

Ah, so I'm writing because I wanted to take a break from all this epidemiology studying.  I seriously feel a bit smarter now that I actually did some reading for the classes three weeks ago.  I feel good as a student.  I always wondered why I didn't do my work as much before.  It's probably time management. Something I lack.  In the hospital I think I "go-go-go-do-do-do" so much that I don't just stop and think on how to make things more efficient.  I mean, I'm still learning of course.  It's a skill I think a nurse really needs.  Especially when the hospital swamps you with admission and know you're severely understaffed.

I'm getting a bit burnt as a tech in the hospital.  Although I love my clients, it's difficult on your body.  I alreayd hurt my shoulder over the summer, and I still feel the effects of it. pain.

so... my personal trainer... at school... who is free for 3 sessions told me to start eating oatmeal for breakfast so I'll feel more full.... I did.... and  it works.  thanks girl.  But I didn't even reschedule haha I think I'll wait until this crazy week is over!

Price of life this thursday!  God is so good! :) Last summer, or winter (?), I was praying that God would use me! and use my passion and my desire to act... (I know so cheesy right? lol) but now God is opening doors! It started in the beginning of this semester when I was able to do a quick short monologue about the lack of water in the world.  Now, Sex trafficking. It's intense.   Whoever reads this, please pray for me :) pray that God will help me remember the lines, to strike people's hearts, to be powerful in a way to glorify the living God. The only God :) I'm quite nervous about that.

Also, I got myself involved in Mystique! haha it's pretty crazy.  the only time I was involved with the Asian American Association was freshmen year, then I ran out of time... so I stopped that.  now, I'm in mystique! haha the MC too (my initials ain't M C for nothing hahaha) and I get to use this quote from community "pop pop" haha.. I wish Jay would be able to go, but he can't.  He's going to host his friend's bachelor's party.  haha nothing dirty, just clean fun with the kinect and kinect sports.

Jay and I traded.  He gave me his old xbox with DDR pads and songs (so I can exercise.... I see how he thinks of me.. lol.. jk) and I lent him my xbox 360 with the kinect.. :) He said he'll try to hack it.. let's see if it works.... let's see how much of an evil genius my boyfriend is.

So I am determined to lose at least 10 pounds by Kuya Anthony and Kristine's wedding. Can't wait for it! but everyone in the entourage is so beautiful and skinny..... I feel out of place.. so I gotta work it! 

(side note. when I make jokes ... people don't laugh.. it makes me sad. by people I mean jay .. and morgan .... so I laugh by myself..... you have now reached the of the side .. get it? lol)

So my parents are coming to Mystique this Saturday. We so excited. We we we we we we we we we (x104) so excited. [autotuned]

Coffee: so my coffee is stale.  My barista housemate doesn't know how to deal with it... so I don't either.  I need guidance from a coffee guru.  Also, the Bible says to be a good steward... So I'm trying to use all of it.. It actually doesn't taste that bad if you put enough of the fatty cream and high carb processed sugar in there (I make it sound so attractive)

Phone: my phone case, the cutest one, is now breaking... shtinks. soo now. I will return (yay) and hopefully get a refund.. though, I can't find my receipt.. -.- yay 

Kettle corn: my favorite type of popcorn. enjoy.

Maybe one day, I'll be famous.. and people will read through these and be marveled at the way my mind processed and spits out information.... about myself. 

famous. not infamous. I don't want to be a criminal or be a patient that has some crazy diagnosis either.  OR be a mother/relative to a person who is notorious. I think I made my caveat pretty clear now.

So my goal for this week.. and my life is to be filled with the Spirit 

[Christ Has Set Us Free]
	[5:1] For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery. 

[5:13] For you were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, 
but through love serve one another. 

[Walk by the Spirit]
	[5:16] But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. 
[5:17] For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, 
for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do. 

	[5:22] But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 
[5:23] gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. 
[5:24] And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. 
	[5:25] If we live by the Spirit, let us also walk by the Spirit. 
[5:26] Let us not become conceited, provoking one another, envying one another. 

Fruity :)

"be fruity for the Lord." Of course, this phrase does not appeal to much, but to those that it attracts, let's be fruity, and we will bring Glory and Honor to our Father in Heaven!

Thus concludes my thoughts.

Jillian Michaels App spurred me to write this. She said writing my decrease stress.... and voila, it did.

Praise God for the Iphone and Jillian Michaels' life.  I hope she knows and loves Jesus. haha

<3 nomnom

The reality of God's word

why hello xanga-erz

It's been a while. it's pretty sad how xanga is now overpowered by tumbler/wordpress and things of the same sort.  Wow. looking through my entries, I was really young and jovial! haha I love it! hahaha 

So, Jay was looking through my entries and found his FAVORITE one.... about the guy and the girl.. haha a bunch of cheese lines.  Now he uses it on me at least twice a week.  haha he eats cheese balls for breakfast.. he's far from cheesy.. he's just... jay. haha

regardless. I have to bid TCNJ goodbye.  two entries before this talked about my major, and well... I did choose nursing, just like a good little filipino girl :) haha I did it. and I praise God I did.  I really couldn't think of anything else I would do.  Possibly a math teacher? or accounting perhaps, I do love math.   But I definitely see why God had placed me IN TCNJ and in the nursing program.  It's amazing to see how much the Nursing Christian Community has grown! and to be a part of it!! It's great! praise the Lord!!

So today, I learned an awesome verse that goes well with Romans 8:28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

In Genesis 50:20, Joseph said this after he had lived through his trials!

 As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today 

 so let me walk you through the last part of Genesis.  Joseph, one of 7 (or something) brothers, was favored by his father. the other brothers were very jealous.  Especially when his father gave Joseph a beautiful colored robe, his brothers got extremely furious and jealous of him.  A bunch of his brothers actually wanted to kill him, but at least one of them had mercy on him and just told the rest to sell Joseph into slavery.  So the brothers sold him into slavery and did you think Joseph was happy about that?? .. who would be... anyway. he was so good at being a slave, he was promoted to being a servant in the palace (I think..) anyway. so the Pharaoh's (i think... but his name is Potiphar) wife sees Joseph.  She likes what she sees and makes a move on him.  However! Joseph, being a man of God turned away and ran away from her.  This lady got angry!! So she made up some lies and got him into trouble.. So Joseph ended up in Jail... Well do you think Joseph was happy then? Probably not too ecstatic.  As time went on God continued to show favor upon him (I'm not sure exactly the moments.. I should read Genesis again) and Joseph became the Pharaoh of EGYPT!! and there was a drought that occurred.  His brothers were extremely scared of him and didn't want to approach him... but they really needed help for their father... so they approached him.  All of them were scared! but in the end... Joseph told them.. "As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today."  

God is always in the works.  It's so evident in my life too.  I actually didn't even want to do nursing, but God meant it for good! And now, I was able to be a part of something great on campus!! And he is still working in my life!! I would still love to play music and worship God for a living, but I think God has something different in stored for me.  We shall wait and see.

God is great.  I can't tell you enough how much he has brought me through this intense nursing program we have in our school! It's ridic! God has always been by my side in EVERY test!! After I started dating Jay... I got a bit distracted.. but God still helped me through.. Obviously I could've done better.. but I think God wanted to teach me a lesson .. in stop slacking off.

Discipline is a big thing that I lack.  I mean I will exercise but eating healthy? nope. doing reading hw? I really try.. but I always fall asleep.  School.. as bad as it sounds.. is my greatest weakness.  I think that's something I've been struggling with because all my friends are extremely great at school, but then now I have to overcome this sin of jealousy in me.  Although, this is not my battle. It's God's!  So praise the Lord I'm never alone.  I'm not there fighting my own battles.  

In terms of spiritual battles, it's nice to think about it as an army.  If I'm trying to do this by myself. It looks like little old me in armor versus a bajillion experienced fighters!  but then with the Lord's army. There are ten bajillion fighters on my side trying to bring me back for Jesus. :)

Oh Lord, thank you for today! Thank you for your greatness and LOVE!  I truly hope you will touch someone through this entry, especiall since I know you make all things work together for the good of whom love you.  

I really don't know who is still on xanga. but I do hope this stir's someone spirit to come seek Him and thirst for Christ once again <3 

love,

Mico